I’ve been thinking about Numbers chapter 14 all day. Sort of playing it over in my mind like a broken record.
And I think, ultimately, the Israelites did not believe because they did not understand the Fathers heart.
We do not understand the Fathers love for us.
We do not understand His ways.
We do not understand His plans.
Our lack of understanding is what sparks the fears and doubts that we many times fall into.
I am not an Israelite.
Yes I complain and grumble…I am a selfish, sinful person and I am constantly working out that part of myself. Of course I doubt at times. And yes, I fear some of the same stuff and I am trying daily to renew my mind.
Yet there is one thing that many of us do that is very different from the Israelites…
We may doubt.
We may even throw tantrums and complain, but then, in the quiet and the calm, peace sets in and the Fathers arms wrap around us because I choose to remember.
I remember when my God provided water in the desert.
I remember when my God provided the light that lit my path.
I rememer when he gave me victory over the enemy.