One of my dearest friends was on the platform and one sentence she said in her message changed my life.
“Sometimes you have to do it scared.”
Almost every time I have said yes to God I’ve had to do it scared.
Scared of the “what if’s.”
What if I’m wrong?
What if I fail?
What if I succeed?
What if I totally mess everything up?
What if this is more than I can handle?
During my last two pregnancies I wasn’t a happy pregnant person.
In fact, it was one of the most difficult times in my life.
I fell into a pit of depression and sadness.
I had my first baby girl and despite what I knew God wanted for our family, in my mind I was done having children.
No more babies from this body!
And then she said it…
“Do it scared.”
And I was.
I was terrified.
“But God, what if I get depressed again? What if I can’t fight it? What if I become that sad, angry mess of a mommy that hides in her room and cries for days and for no particular reason while her babies are being babysat by the TV and playing by themselves for hours? God I am so scared of being THAT mommy.”
I then heard His answer, “Do it anyway. Do it scared. I have more for you. I am enough.”