I just came down from putting sweet boy to bed. I sat in his rocking chair to read him a book, which I don’t usually do; usually I sit on his bed with him and read but not tonight.
When I sat down, he looked at me and grinned and said, “Mommy, can I sit down with you in your lap?” I replied, “Of course.” He came over and hunkered down. We read the book and I held him like I use to.
Once we were done reading he turned toward me and said, “Mommy can you hold me.”
“Like I use to when you were a baby?” I asked.
“Yeah,” he replied very excited like. “Wait, let me get my puppy and my bie.” He jumped on his bed and got his loveys and tossed them over to me. I placed bie across my chest and he straddled his little legs around me and hugged me, with his face in the crook of my neck.
We were quiet for a minute…perhaps both enjoying the nostalgic moment; remembering the days when he fit perfectly against my chest and I would hold and rock him till he was asleep.
He broke my thoughts and pushed against me to look at me and said, “Mommy, I love this.”
“I love this too. We should do this more often.”
“Yeah. I love it too.”
I began to sing him a song that I use to sing to him…
“Baby mine, don’t you cry. Baby mine, dry your eyes…”
“Mommy what are you singing?”
“I use to sing this to you when you were a baby.”
“I’m not a baby anymore. Don’t sing that. Sing twinkle, twinkle little star. No, I sing it first…
“tinkle, tinkle, wittle staa, how I know you where you are. Up, up up up up up up up so high, wike a dymon in da sky. tinkle, tinkle, wittle sta, how I know you where you are.”
Ok, your turn mom.”
“Oh Father, I was in mommy heaven for a moment today. I look at my kids and think, how did time go so fast. It’s not fair. He use to be so small and now he can do so much. I know I taught him to be independent and we at times push him to be a big boy, but I miss my baby. Even baby girl is getting so big. So Lord, if you can keep them little just like this, I would greatly appreciate it! But if not, let’s have more moments like these. A lot of them. In your precious name, Amen.”