I am a believer. One who seeks and follows Christ daily.
Well, almost daily.
But you see, despite the fact that I have loved my Lord almost my entire life I still, sometimes, have trouble with certain issues.
Sometimes I tend to doubt. I tend to not trust “with all my heart.”
And you know what the worst thing about that is…I can tell you stories of time and time again when the Lord came through.
I mean…HE CAME THROUGH! Flying colors and all. Almost showing off.
Shock. Wow. HOW??
Yet, he always comes through.
Now it’s not always in my timing, but usually better.
But I am one of those who forgets all those times he has come through. Or, maybe I just need to constantly remind myself. Because as soon as things are starting to look a little dim, I worry adn fret and doubt.
But I shouldn’t because, My God has done so much.
My God gave me the best job out of college, 20 minutes from our home that was being built, 3 weeks before school started. I applied to almost every district in the city and he managed to work it all out.
My God provided my husband with a management job months before our first baby and get this…literally 5 minutes away from home. That first year or so he was able to come home for lunch, go to doctor appointments, etc.
My God gave me two beautiful, healthy children. I asked for one to be like his dad…and boy is he! And the other, despite a difficult pregnancy, fear and uncertainty, he gave me a beautiful, sweet baby girl with bright blue eyes and a precious smile who is a momma’s girl.
Yesterday, I started doubting…I was having a hard time trusting. I was praying and asking for an answer.
You know, a bright light shining upon me, a voice from above…anything clear like that!
So, I openedd my bible and flipped around. I ended up in Ephesians. At a verse that we use so often we almost get desensitised to its power and greatness. And, well I needed to be reminded.
“I pray that you may have power, toghether with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasureabky more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him he the glory…”
More than I can ask or imagine…
“Father, I am believing that you are gonna leave us with our mouths wide open in awe. I am beliving that you have a great plan, you have all the details worked out and we are just waiting on your perfect timing. Help me remember to trust you. To wait on you. And strengthen me each day. And, father, no matter what the answer, I know that you are good and your love endures forever. In your precious name, Amen.”