A lot of times, what God calls each of us to isn’t always fun, or easy or safe.
There is always a risk.
In February, you were able to attend the if:Gathering, what did God reveal to you at the conference?
Another thing: while at the If: Gathering, I was having time with the Lord and I said, ‘ok Lord I am happy with where you have me. I love the fact that I get to be a mom to these 4 great kids. I love the fact that we are starting a church soon, I love the fact that you give me opportunities for me to speak; but you will not leave me alone with the fact that we are called to adopt and you will not leave me alone with the thought of these women and children who are being trafficked…’ The Lord knows I can not physically be with those people right now, but I also know that God is God and He is gonna allow whatever He wants to happen, happen. I’m putting that all before the Lord and say, ‘so what do you want me to do?’ What is my response to this, as a girl in my thirties who wants to do what He wants me to do, but I have a baby at home?
I got home and asked the Lord, what do you want me to do with all this, ‘cause I already told you I would do anything.’ He very clearly told me to go and look at Noonday, so I did.
What is the Noonday Collection?
Basically, [Noonday] is a company that was started out of Austin and the woman who started it wanted to save for her adoption. She wanted to do something to save financially and to help women from different countries. You support these women, as their ambassador, so that they have a job creating jewelry and are not drawn into the sex trade and so they aren’t sold into slavery. They have something that gives them dignity as well as a portion of the sales goes to adoption. So God told me to pursue this and with the money I could earn, I would put it in a savings account and it goes to Jungeblut number 5. And I could do this where God has me planted right now. It’s my way to help.
What prompted you to enter the Style for Justice Contest?
The idea of being able to not only go to Rwanda, but to go and meet these women that I think of constantly, its obsessive, really…I love the fact that there is an opportunity for them to know that they are loved by our mighty God, that He is providing for them and that they can have a job that they can be proud of… So many times we as believers go and love on them, but we don’t help them to get out of their situation. These ladies, they need jobs, they need money to provide for their families, they need help and somebody is doing that! To get to go and meet these women and love on these women and create relationships, it’s so awesome.
Also, on a side note, Adam (Robyn’s husband) went to Rwanda in 2007 and that’s where God gave him the call for adoption. Ever since then, we have tried to get me or us, over there and I have had this longing to go…knowing that I would go one day, but I didn’t know how or when.
What is your hope or desire if you do win this amazing opportunity?
This is so much more than the easy answer, like ‘I want to go and encourage them’. But, what do I have to offer them except for Jesus? I don’t have anything to offer them, I really don’t. I want to go and I want to love the heck out of them. I want to let them know how much they are loved. I want them to know that what they are doing is huge.
As moms, we wear lots of hats. And of course, our greatest ministries are to our husbands and children, but how do you balance and pursue the other dreams and callings God has placed in you heart in the midst of motherhood?
What Has God called you to right now?
If God could use you to do anything…what would astound you?
If Adam and our kids, or even just Adam and I could go and love on the people groups that God has called us to and represent them by mobilizing others…I keep coming back to that.
Us, traveling and speaking together to mobilize the church into action for these amazing people…BUT, I wouldn’t want to do it without spending an intense amount of time with these people. You know, getting to know their faces, their names, their stories. Being able to hold their hand and look them in the eyes and say, what is it that you need? Laughing with them, really getting to know them and coming back over here and being able to represent them and mobilize our church! Mobilize the Christians!
To be able to go and be the hands and feet of Jesus. That sounds so cliché, but to be able to go and have a ministry where we can just travel and speak about stuff like that…it would blow my mind! I could pictures us in a bus with homeschooling on the side (laughter) how fun would that be!?! But to take my kids! I will never forget watching Avery do missions and her heart…How the Lord opened it up, and getting to be her mom! She wasn’t taught to do that it was just in her, and if Adam and I could just go for it…that would be…
What is one thing that God called you to that was hard or scary?
The scariest thing I ever walked through in my entire life is when I carried Elle And yet, it was the most amazing time that I have ever had with the Lord, because every single day I had to trust Him that things were going to be the way that He had called them to be. I didn’t know what that looked like. I didn’t know if I would be carrying a child that was missing limbs. I didn’t know if I was going to carry a child whose brain didn’t develop completely. I had no idea what was going to come, but every single day trusting Him.
[You can go to the link to hear Robyn’s testimony provided at the end of the post!]
What did you learn through all that?
There is nothing I can do to make Him love me more or less. I’ve always wanted to be his favorite and I already am. We all are. I really think I use to wake up everyday and think, ‘I have got to make you proud of me, tell me what it is that will make you proud of me and I’ll do it’. And I would get so frustrated, because he wouldn’t tell me and I think what he wanted me to know was that, in John, it says that He loved me first and He did! I always felt I had to earn that love, but to be able to walk in that and know that there is really nothing I can do. He hasn’t skipped over me, I haven’t missed it, I haven’t missed him! There have been so many times where I have woken up and think ‘well, I’ve missed my chance!’ I’m not a young 20 year old with reckless abandonment anymore! I have responsibilities, a husband and four great kids. I can’t just go. So many times I think I have missed it, I have I missed my calling, but that’s not how it works. My yeses come every day in very small ways and God uses all of it. Storms are brewing and he has some stuff in the works and it’s good.
What’s the one thing you could tell moms like me and you about pursuing our God given dreams?
Ok, so what happens if you don’t win the Noonday contest and trip to Rwanda?
I’ve been obedient. I’ve been faithful. I’ve taken the risk. I know there is something He wants to work out in my calling and whether it’s through the winning or something else, He’s working.
Ok, last question, if you could choose one object to represent you life’s journey so far, what would it be?
But literally, when he called me to the ministry, I wanted so many questions answered. What are you going to do? What is the fomula? How do I …? And He was like no, trust Me. Here’s a blank piece of paper: You get on board with me and give it back and when I have an assignment for you I’ll slide it across the table and you read it and say, ‘ok’ and I’m gonna take it back and I’m gonna keep on writing your story. But you have no idea how that blank piece of paper is gonna be filled! He’s writing the story and I’m just going ok, what’s next.