I am over the top over joyed!
IT’S A GIRL!!!!!
We found out the news on Friday and it was exhausting!
I was so nervous and had been in prayer all week about it. I was trying to convince myself that it was a boy and I just had to accept it, because I didn’t want to be dissapointed, I love my baby, boy or girl, but I was afraid that if I built it up too much I would be dissapointed.
I was praying all week, “ok Lord, you know so I need you to prepare my heart for the news. My desire is a girl, you know that, but your will is best and you know what I need more than I do, I understand that, but I need you to tell my heart that.”
I was praying this everytime I thought about it.
And in my heart I could softly hear the words, “I will give you the desires of your heart,” but my head doubted. I thought, “but God, I don’t want to be dissapointed. I want to be thrilled and happy about my baby.”
So…there we were. My son and husband and a few other family members waiting…nervous for my sake…
It took a little bit for the baby to move into position and I promise you, while I was lying there I thought, “Ok Lord, I trust you and I know it’s a boy and that’s perfect.”
And right then the lady says, “Well, your gonna have a girl!”
I began to cry. I was so happy.
And everything that the Lord had taken me through this past year all came to perfection. I knew in my heart it would be a girl, because God had told me. But you know how it is…your mind gets your heart all muddled and confused and doubtful. She is a piece of my reward for the storm that he led me through.
God knew I had to be better, to be wiser, to trust him and get rid of the junk in my life that would hinder me from being the mother he wants me to be. The mother she needs me to be. He knew all along.
I am thrilled beyond…I am in awe of my Lord.
Emma – from Emmanuel, “God with us,” and Gabrielle – “God’s messenger.”
“My precious Lord, you are so good to me. You truly do give me the desires of my heart and everytime I am in awe. Thank you for trusting me with this precious baby girl. I can’t get over how good you are and how much you love me. You have been in every part of this pregnancy from conception and I ask you to continue to bless the health of my and my baby. Keep her safe until the perfect moment. In your sweet name, Amen.”